“I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen, not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.”
The only sound is that of the waves gently touching the shore. The faint scent of the sea surrounds me, so much like the aroma of home that is so dear to my heart.
The sun is just starting to turn the dark blue clouds a soft orange. I look out at the silver ocean, serene as it begins a new day. Over my shoulder I look at the place I’ve called home for the past three months. I take in the palm trees as they dance gently in the morning breeze.
The white sands are just beginning to take on the glow of the new day. My big brother Jess quietly rakes the seagrass off the shore. Once again I turn my head as I look out over the sea, like an old friend, the sun is once again taking its place in the sky.
The horizon takes on its familiar light, and a new day is begun.
Sitting here on the dock, I can’t help but let my mind wander back just a few weeks, to the very first time I set foot on the Belizean sands. Just a few weeks ago, I arrived here broken, insecure, and hurting. There was barely even a faint glimmer of light in my life.
I think back to how trying those first few days and weeks were.
Why couldn’t God just fix all my issues and take me immediately to a better place? Why couldn’t I feel Him working in me? But even as I was so confused and frustrated, the heavy clouds in my heart began to take on a new, brilliant hue as light began to touch them.
As time went on, I realized that healing and growth isn’t a quick and painless process. I realized that I had to revisit the hard places in my life, but in those moments of deepest hurt, God put light in my life. The holes in my spirit were filled with a blinding glow that still mesmerizes me.
Now the sun has taken its place in the sky. Its rays pierce surrounding clouds. I can’t help but softly smile as I look back on these life changing months.
I don’t smile because I’ve successfully repaired everything in my life and now I’m good to go.
In this moment joy takes hold of me because I’ve allowed the marvellous light that is the love of Christ to touch the most broken and bruised corners of my heart. I will never finish growing, as the sun rises and sets, so I will have both joyful and dark times throughout my life.
It’s going to be a beautiful day.
Claire Stewart – Leadership DTS January 2013Read More