Satisfaction through God has been an area of growth for me over the past six weeks. The first evening I arrived here, my brain was numb. It was dark, hot, and a brief walk through town confirmed that this place was not anything like my home land. When our water taxi left town and headed for my future residence, I was mentally calculating how far from home I was getting. There was no going back.
For the next few weeks I battled various cravings from home and looked for similarities to cling to. I made a two page list in my journal of food I wanted to eat at home. It was constantly hot and humid outside, which clung to me like a second skin. Showers were cold, and the fountain sounds kept me awake at night. Paradise.
My internal attitude was not great at the beginning; I was comparing and criticizing many facets of the base. Then, after speaking with one of our leaders, my attitude began to change. They told me when some familiarities are taken away, God will replace them with new things that are unique to the area. We can find contentment through Him. Armed with this knowledge, the process of attitude adjustment was gradual. I began to look for things unique to our base and the town of San Pedro. The stars are magnificent here, and the sunrises spectacular. Beans and rice is a meal I quite enjoy. The pineapple and bananas are delicious. Cold showers are still cold showers – but hey, at least we have them. By opening my eyes to the wonderful things God has provided in this place, my cravings for things at home have waned. There are still challenges presented – don’t get me wrong, but I know contentment is possible.
Now with this knowledge I hope to go to my outreach in Zambia with an open mind. Again the culture, climate, and cuisine will be foreign. But instead of comparing or criticizing it for not fitting into my box of familiarities, Zambia can be a whole new experience.
- Sydney Gabbey